OK, Sam did apologize over her behavior and I, on my part, forgave her. Asked her what she wants to do and she says she wants me to help her with the mental attitude of her game. For now, Ed says no more training 3x a week as it's costly so, Sam decided to cut back to twice a week. I think the crux of it all is that she wants to do well so that we'll be happy. But she got it all wrong. I told her yesterday that regardless of whether she wins or lose in a tournament, she's already my champion and I will always be proud of her. She doesn't have anything to prove to me. All that I asked is for her to go out there, gain experience and have fun with her bowling friends. Is that too much to ask?
It is not my intention for her to go win tournaments so that I can brag to my friends. If you all know me well enough, regardless of whether she wins or lose, I post her results out on my blog. Am I ashamed? No? Am I proud? Yes, absolutely coz with every win or lose, I know she tried except for the last 3 tournaments where she totally lost it mentally by throwing tantrums and as a result, lose her cool, her focus and her game.
We now have 2 more travel leagues (Apr 26th & May 17) and 2 more tournaments ie. the Hillman Memorial on May 24th and Reno Jr/Adult on July 31. After these, hopefully we will both get to rest or play some fun summer tournaments or maybe, nothing at all.
Well, it feels good to be one big HAPPY family once again. Thanks a million to Belinda for calming me down yesterday coz yes, I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown coz I was so angry that I vow I won't let Sam bowl ever again. It hurt so much yesterday that the spirit was broken and I was more than happy to throw in the towel. But Sam apologized and told me that she wants to continue and she's willing to change the mental aspect. So, we'll see how far this takes us....
So, back to more chauffeuring her to practices and tournaments. Sigh, life as a mom is never easy is it??? And to get misunderstood by the rest of the world, well, I guess that's part and parcel of trying to be a super mom!
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